Failure

What the shame…

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I committed a blunder. The moment I discovered it yesterday, I was dumbstruck. How could one act this dumb when concerned with something of utmost importance…

The more I thought about it, the more I realised that what I had done was going to be recorded in the annals of history in times to come. And I was filled with shame. For having let down myself and my colleagues.

This wasn’t the first time I had done something majorly wrong in my life. There have been other brilliant mistakes and failures along the line.

Some of those happened in my growing up years and were concerned with my studies – for instance, not being prepared well for exams when I was in 6th grade and ending up having to relocate myself to be with my parents (I used to stay with my loving and adorable grandmother till then).

Or at times concerned people – not recognising who is right and ending up on the wrong side. In the process hurting some of my good friends.

Some have been concerned with work also – goofing up on important tasks and coming undone when not expected.

So, this wasn’t the first or the last time I had fallen down at work.

However, each time I committed mistakes and reflected, I have learnt from them and become better. At least strived to. And that has helped me as a person and as a professional.

So, as I was wallowing in self pity, a tiny voice inside my head called out “apologise and move on”. And while the heart wanted to cry, the mind egged me on to get out of the gloom.

I assessed the damage and understood what to do from here. Then, called up my seniors and talked to them about it and apologised. Called up my fellow colleagues and owned it up while talking about how to minimise the damage. And let it out.

And it worked marvellously. While earlier I was filled with self-doubt, now I had realised how to navigate these waters. And while some damage had been done, I was now determined not to let the mistake shake me down or divert from the objective.

After all, I am human. And shit happens. While feeling ashamed of it is alright, not confessing or apologising leads to agony.

In my view, there’s nothing shameful about apologising if I have done some wrong and admitting it. Helps me heal faster…

After all, ‘what the shame’, when failure begets success!

The Endgame…

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We all have a fascination for results. And a bias for the near term, the immediate future…

While in college, I got my hands on ‘The Fountainhead’ by Ayn Rand – a book which deeply influenced me. In quick succession, I read almost her entire body of work. The one which I was most impressed with was ‘Atlas Shrugged’.

It’s a story about the systemic erosion and decimation of personal values and capitalistic nature of the American nation and how a bunch of key business people, after having enough of the new incapable administration, decide to shrug from their responsibilities and bring the new order down, thereby re-creating the virtuous society. Those individuals in the novel were supremely confident of their capabilities and extremely good performers.

After having read the saga 3 times, I have always viewed the directions societies take and individuals adopt in Atlas’ terms. As I align with the philosophy at an overall level, it has given me a compass to view and make sense of people. And strive to be the best version of myself.

While it is romantic to think of and believe in perfection and excellence, over the years I have realised that there is a very thin line when it comes to performance and whether one is on top of the game or just playing a part. And while we might like to be always on top, it’s just not humanly possible.

It’s better to approach things like a marathon than a 100-meter dash – play along and keep your focus all throughout – end objective will be achieved. So while we may have done well in the near-term, how do we remain consistent in the long-term? Or if we haven’t done so well, how do we improve and grow from where we are…

This is true in all aspects of our lives. Instead of creating constant pressure on ourselves to excel everywhere, I guess it’s fine if there are times when we cannot excel. If we fail. If we couldn’t be perfect that one time.

What is important though, is to strive to do our best always. To ensure that we don’t let ourselves down. To not get defeated. To rise up and run again. To strive for perfection and excellence.

And to remember that the endgame is to reach the goals we set for ourselves with a sane head on our shoulders and life in our lungs!

Putting it Mildly…

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Over the past few days, I have been observing and reading a lot on topics ranging from politics to business to sports.

Companies and businesses are meeting and evaluating what went right and how to improve on their mistakes. Congress party had a full blown session to assess their recent electoral defeats. Sports pages are full of speculation of what went right and wrong with teams and sportsmen. And so on…

Sadly, most of these, at least in the public domain, are just putting it mildly! They aren’t going to the full depth of the issue and are papering over the real concerns. As if glossing over the ineptitude and burying the ghosts of past can make it easy to carry on with the future!

I feel an introspection or analysis is to the point and of benefit when it goes deep down and finds out the real truth, however bitter it might be, and associated steps are taken to correct the wrong. Unless one’s mistakes are rectified or at least understood, we cannot benefit from the hindsight to make our future better. Yet, a lot of people shy away from this very truth.

Why is what I wonder? Is it a fear of facing a backlash for failing, making compromises, partiality to favour vested interests, or just plain hiding from the truth! Perhaps it isn’t everyone’s forte to judge oneself!

But I guess the single biggest reason is the negativity associated with failing. The society doesn’t take too kindly to people or organizations who fail. They are ridiculed and made fun of, or written off for their lifetime, or simply ignored as have-beens. And that’s why we shy away from accepting or analyzing failures and learning from them…

Maybe if we all learn to take mistakes in our stride and grow from our failures and associated learning, we can have a better future and the world can become a better place!

Here’s to failing more to learn more!